Ever woke up with an idea and the excitement to do something with it, mostly on the lines of accomplishing what you just had in mind?
I do. Everyday. Except there is not just a single light bulb, its always a chandelier of bulbs, something similar to the builders' grade chandelier. Or like a tangled web of threads, with some ends hanging loose, others just barely showing in knots here and there. Or more like a flood! A dozen or so ideas hit me, each one fighting for attention for the day.
To be continued...
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I know exactly how you feel.
Thanks for stopping by, Fran.
I can understand taking time to login, reading and leaving a comment. Not many people would do that. Well, not anymore. Given how tedious the process for something as simple as dropping a few words on others' work, its a delight to see you relate to what I am going through.
I think, I had been like this for a while. Its just there are not hard deadlines anymore. Its good and bad both. Good in the sense that I feel I am more disciplined to work within reasonable time-period without having an eleventh hour, forcing me to finish it. But I find it bad because, having a deadline also means answerability, usually to some sort of authoritative figure who would reward you for accomplishing it well. Without which, you are a bossless boss of self. And when it comes to reward , you just cannot be quantitative about it. Naturally.
Earlier, there was some sort of constraints all along, but now being a mom and a stay at home artist, things are self defined and that creates a mesh of possibilities. It it a continuous chaos or creativity, which I would like to channelize for the respect of it.
Thanks again for letting me know that I am not alone. I really appreciate it!
On a side note, I had to leave this post at that, where in fact, I was meaning to declutter those thoughts into well defined, free-flowing independent streams.
Its good that hardwiring of getting things in order has always worked in my favor. But I have surrendered to the fact that sometimes to get to the next level require more hoarding so that we can fit the pieces of puzzles better!
So, I will add more to this. Or may restart a new post on the lines of this one. Either way, have to get everything on the wall where I can see it all together, more clearly. I would want to wake up rested. I really do.
Bhavna, You are totally talking about me...my thought process moves so fast that I lose track of my thoughts. There are times when instead of concentrating on the task at hand, I get absorbed in what's going through my brain.
Ahhhh.... the chaotic dance of ideas. Hoping one will define you. One day!
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